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Amály Celeste - May 17 - June 17 - Forever

5/17/2016

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Amály Celeste - May 17 - June 17 - Forever

There is an ache that takes hold of me

deep at its core
it is an ocean of loss
of love smothered
Amály, my child
Amály
name I still call in my sleep,
with the enormousness of longing
to love her
to mother her
to be frustrated and tired by her
to have bore witness to the life
she would have lived

odd as it is, to embrace the ache is like
holding her again
in the cradle of those
moments in which
she looked back
at me with the 
the brilliance of recognition
"Mami, I know you. I am glad you are here."

it is a month-long ache 
the seventeenth of may to the seventeenth of june
every day weighted by the 
simultaneity of living and remembering
on this day...
I labored for twelve hours
on this day...
she was still in a coma
on this day...
they removed life support
on this day...
we went before Yemaya
on this day
we brought her home
on this day
she took her last breath...

blessed by the ache
blessed by the child
Amály Celeste
forever

May 17, 2008
​Aida Salazar
This poem was written soon after I had given birth to my third child, yet the pain of having lost my first born child persisted, as it does today.  I return to the sentiments here to find refuge in my longing, my ache, my inability to let her go, my insistence of holding her within for all my days. 
6 Comments
Chantelise
5/17/2016 08:56:45 pm

Thank you for sharing your poem. It really touched me to read and feel your words. You remind me to so grateful for the life we hold and are.

Thank you

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Sophia Denis Tripaldi
5/17/2016 08:57:56 pm

Aida...we lost a five year old angel this day in 1973''' thank you for sharing your shining soul on me today....oh yes... AMALY SINGS! I revere you Aida...may God bless me with a Mima like you. You rose and rise me to the heights of Paradise. AMALY LIVES!

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Julieta
5/17/2016 09:51:36 pm

Sending love to you Aida

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lakiba
5/17/2016 09:56:09 pm

Traveling wide and deep within my reading brought raindrops from my eyes ... sending you light within a whisper from my heart to yours

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Joanne
5/18/2016 05:45:02 am

Beautiful poem
Thank you for sharing it.

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Ami
5/18/2016 09:02:08 pm

Beautiful.. Loving you and familia. Thank you for sharing.

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